Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Should I Be Scared?
Mood: Weird sensation in my tummy....
Music: That's All - Michael Buble

I had a weird dream. A horrible dream. A dream that will haunt me again.

I dreamt about the person I liked, again.

But this time it's so different, like what I felt years ago when he was still here, when I could've seen him everyday, just really wanting to get his attention and really know him and ... stuff. Just to see his smile and see him happy and just be comfortable in each other's company. And to be there for him.

Oh great, I'm blushing now....

But it hurts when I woke up, knowing that my dream was not true. It's really odd actually, like I'm developing feelings for him again. Heck! I haven't for the last 1 1/2 years! It's just.... weird. Like everytime I see his picture, it makes me sad. He has lots of fangirls and I'm just another person... No possibility to be togher too... hee hee.

I have no chance whatsoever to be with him, ever. But why does my heart still long for him (man that sounds cheesy... eeww.... can't believe I said that) and just wish for his presence? I feel like crying sometimes, but I just don't want to remember him anymore. It hurts you know, to lie to yourself. And it hurts when your feeling aren't returned and never will be.

What's this I'm feeling? Just another worthless crush? What can I do to forget that dude?

This post sounds like a song.

And I don't think anyone would ever like me though, he he he. Seriously... ^^
Clone [*] 3:28 PM