Saturday, April 16, 2005

The Purpose Of This Place
Noise: Blow Winds - Saiyuki seiyyus (Goku, Gojyo & Sanzo)

Lately, I just have no idea what to blog about. My life is very uneventful. There's nothing to be excited about, nothing that could make me happy all the time. It's just quiet. And lonely.

People might blog about the book they're read, the places they've been to, the people they love, their pets, friends, crazy funny things, or their highly interesting life. But I have none of that. Still, I'm puzzled why I still want to blog. I mean, there's nothing.

But by me saying this doesn't mean that I don't want to blog anymore, just someting that has been swimming in my head for a long time. I said this just to say, "This is all I have to offer"

It's hard being me, coz when you're me, no one's there for you, it's just you who's there for the other people...

Right now, I'm supposed to be at a classmate's house practicing for our choral speaking competition. I'm too tired coz I just woke up.

I feel stupid nowadays, coz I'm failing papers and that's not good enough. I used to be kinda good at Math, but I'm doing badly now. And my Add Maths is still horrible, I get the subjuct but just can't answer it right, I have no idea why.

The only thing I'm good at is drawing, and I'm very afraid that's not going to bring me anywhere. And still, I'm not good at it fully. I have one more year of school and I am so so so scared I'm going to be jobless and not go to a university/college. How can I be like I was last year? I nee to be really good like last year. I don't want to be at the bottom anymore, I hate it there.

So, I will end this very serious-kind-of post and go to DeviantArt where I will post my ugly and weird artworks and get critizied (did I spell that right?). I love that. Hmmnn. So much negativity from this fellow over here... So.... angsty.

Later -_-
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