Thursday, September 09, 2004

What Did I Do?
That's it.. I'm done with.. This is the final straw.... I am officially done with making skins... I HATE IT SOOO MUCH! AAAAARRRGGHHH! I mean, I don't know friggin why but download rates for my recent skins are friggin horrid. Ughhh.. I know some people at BlogSkins would say,

"But your skins have more download rates than mine.."..
" It's good enough for me.."...
"Why are you mad over such a stupid thing? it's not your life, those skins..." ..........
"this is stupid.. you're an idiot.."
"You're just jealous of the other designers..".......
"ah, why should we care... other designers can make new ones for us, we don't care bout you" ...........
"your ideas suck, that's why we hate them"
"you're a bitch and you're bitchin to get attention from people" ............
"we just don't favor them, we like something more, not stupid ones like yours"......
"what? who are you? are you a designer?I don't think so.."..........

It's not helping dude. It's so frustrating... This "hobby" made me happy and led me far away from depression. You know what, maybe I am not qualified to be good enuff... I hate myself and I hate my ideas.. people don't get it and they think I'm some stupid idiotic girl who's trying to impress people with some stupid ideas who they think I can thinkof in just a milisecond. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Well, I'm not trying to. I just want to share ideas with some people... Maybe they don't like it. And even if they did download it, they don't host the images themselves, just depend on my weeny little Photobucket account.

YOU LOT DON'T APPRECIATE AND RESPECT ME AS A PERSON

I HAVE FRIGGIN FEELINGS TOO

Ah.. you know what.. I'm gonna keep my "wacky" little ideas and love them and not share it anymore. I'm selfish now. And I don't care if you hate me coz you hate me already.

This "tragedy" has indeed left a deep scar in my mind and heart.

Clone [*] 7:26 PM